Changes

It is almost 4 am, I woke up a little while ago.. STARVING! So I ate, and when I came upstairs I saw that I had a little visitor who snuck into Mommy's bed while I was downstairs. I love to watch Aiden sleep, he looks so little and I still see that baby boy in him! It got me thinking about how fast time goes by, and all the changes that are coming for our family in just a few weeks. I went into Jake's room, and sat on his bed. He was cuddled up asleep, and I could still see my little baby in him too. But he is not a baby anymore, in just 12 days he will be a Kindergartner! He will be gone almost seven hours a day.. and I will miss him all seven of those hours! I want to freeze time. I want to have a few more months, this is much harder then I anticipated it to be. I want Aiden to quit getting so big.. everyday he says and does something new, and my baby becomes less and less of a baby. As much as I am tired of being pregnant, in a small way I am dreading the end of it. I know that the last time I feel her kick, or move, will be the last time I EVER experience that. I know that the last time I look down at my big baby belly.. it will be the last time I see myself that way. That has been the hardest part of this pregnancy by far.. knowing that it will be the last positive test I see, the last first kick, the last ultrasound.. it has not been easy. I am so happy to have been blessed with my babies, and I know three is the right amount for our family. I am also excited to begin this new chapter of our lives, with our kids getting older, and our family being able to have new experiences. I wish I could have both.. maybe a time machine :) !! Wow, I actually feel a lot better! I know that I have been a little bit of an emotional blogging mess lately.. but I want to remember how I felt at this time.

So other then crying constantly, I have also been scatter brained. I forgot about a play date I was supposed to host on Monday. My friends arrived to find me in my P.J's, looking a mess. Thankfully I have some very understanding ladies as friends, and there was no harm done! I have also been misplacing almost everything lately. I spend quite a while each day searching for my cell phone, car keys, wedding rings, the remote.. I am just happy I have been able to keep tabs on my children :)!

On a great note.. I have a Dr Appt at 9 am this morning, and I am having an ultrasound. I LOVE seeing my little girl every week! Also, Gymboree came out with an adorable Owl line for baby girls, and I was fortunate enough to get a coupon from my sweet friend Cortney this weekend! I am so excited to head to the store this weekend and pick something out for my Lucy! So I am off to try my best to go back to sleep, and if not I can just snuggle my Aiden monkey for a while!

And just in case you needed proof that these two look adorable when they sleep.. here you go: